Sometimes I just want to come home
And have someone there for me
Someone to be there so I’m not alone
Someone that will talk to me

Sometimes I just want someone to understand
And have someone care about my day
Someone that will hold my hand
Someone that will not run away

Sometimes I just want someone to kiss
And have someone be my light
Someone to help me when I feel hopeless
Someone to sleep with at night

Sometimes I just want to care for someone else
And to look deep into their eyes
Someone that will share them-self
Someone that will never tell me lies

Sometimes I just want to believe all of this
And think that my life could be better than this
Some way that I could fill this abyss
Some way that I could remove this loneliness

I’m sinking further down into the seas of despair
Loosing control of my emotions
And increasingly feeling that I am lost
I’m starting to think that I will never find my way
I’m starting to realize that I must leave the world I know
But as my time comes closer for my way out
The inadequacies that I feel seem to grow
And as the time slips by,
Rather than healing,
My wounds only seem to grow,
And multiply…

Has there ever been a time in your life…
Where you’ve had noone to turn to?
Have you ever felt so much pain…
That you wanted to sleep forever?
Do you sometimes wish…
You could cry out your pain?

Has there ever been a time in your life…
That you pray for a change?
Have you ever felt like…
You must change the past?
Do you sometimes feel…
Like you have no control of your destiny?

The darkness of night brings a familiar cold
Spend the bright days of pain in slumber
The only joy to find is in the fall of the sun
Knowing that one more day has now passed
The wonder is how many more must you endure
The goal is only to keep making them pass
The glaring sun only reminds of love lost
And the cold darkness comforts familiar feelings
Will the days ever be enjoyed again,
And will there ever be another love?
Will there ever be love again,
Or will life continue as a bitter pain?

My destiny is to fight an endless battle
Filled with fear and pain
I’ll never see the light
The nights consume my days
And force me to hide from truth
With an intoxicating feeling I’m able to move on
I’ll never again feel the warmth
For my pain has shown to be my fate.

I feel like such a pathetic fool
Always holding so tightly to a sad dream
I cannot seem to ever let go of this hope
For so long will I imagine…
That someday you’ll want me back
I feel like such a pathetic fool
Expecting you will someday want to hold me
At one point you filled with joy at a thought
One of being my wife
Now I find myself worthless
All I can seem to want…
Is for you to want me once again
All that fills my mind is these foolish dreams
All that encompasses my dreams is holding you
I fear I will never move on
I fear I will forever be lost loving you
I fear I will end my life alone
I fear I will never desire anything but you
I feel like such a pathetic fool
Even as you reject me
I find myself trying to please you
No matter how many times I am told
I cannot accept that we are through
I feel like such a pathetic fool
Why do I beg for you to return?
I feel like such a pathetic fool
I AM A PATHETIC FOOL.

Often I find that I love what I cannot have
And I cannot feel for what stands before me
Now all I can long for is what I once had
Why do I care so deeply about that one
I wonder at times where I shall end up
And ponder about where my true heart lies
Can I ever truly stop feeling how I do?
Will I ever be able to move on?
I’m emotionally dead inside now..
Only caring about my last love
I am unable to see the good in others
Nor am I able to feel for another
I fear that my life is destined to be lonesome
And I try to fill my time with activities
Activities that tend to be truly pointless
But I always end up spending my nights alone
And I always tend to long for my lost love

Ponderous minds betray our lives,
As we sit and wonder what could be,
What should be,
And what possibly may be,
We allow reality to fall apart before us
Always asking questions of "What if..?"
No longer can we focus on "How to…"
In these times of uncertainty,
We all tend to watch the movies of our lives
Rather than producing and directing our reality
STOP!
It’s time for us to paint our masterpieces
STOP!
We must no longer admire the artwork of others
STOP!
No longer shall we be envious of the talent of others
STOP!
We must now paint our own lives
We must now direct our own movies
We must now stop watching and admiring
We must now begin creating!

Let us take a moment to contemplate
Let us take some time to ponder
It’s time for us to realize
It’s time for us to know the truth

Our lives are filled with pointless journeys
Always engaged into useless adventures
We’re always lost in what to do
Entertainment is so useless and wasteful
Constantly we seek companionship
When constantly it destroys us

Let us see our lives
Let us loose our fears
It’s time for us to change life
It’s time for us to stop playing

Daily we opt into such a pointless game
Periodically taking short breaks to think
Constantly searching for an answer
All we find is more questions
We set our to destroy our enemies
When inside they destroy us

Let us let go of pain
Let us restart our emotions
It’s time for us to stop
It’s time for us to open up

Our lives are so constantly clouded
Visions of pain are all we look towards
Rather than looking towards the positive
Fear, pain, and negativity is all we see
We are always searching for joy
When joy is no where inside of us

Tragedy strikes in the depths of the hearts
Of those swallowed by pain
Living lies as their souls fade away
Fearing live and running
They hide from the open arms presented to them
Until they realize they’re now alone
Everyone that cared,
And all that wanted to
Have been driven from them
All because they allowed themselves to be consumed by the darkness
And they’ve blocked their emotions from the outside world