At the current time, I no longer know myself
My life has been ripped from me without warning
Everything I have been living for is gone
And the things I used to love, no longer have appeal
Upside down and backwards, everything is lost
Inside out and hidden away, life makes no sense
To stay here and start over in familiarity?
Or to leave and go far to begin completely anew?
I thought I had figured everything out
I felt the rest of my life was set
With nothing left I am now lost
Where life will now take me I cannot know
I no longer see the purpose in anything
I have no more desires
Except for that of being loved again
I will never know why
And I will never know how it could happen
Claims of love and adornment seem false
If she loved like she claims
How could she lay with someone else?
If she cared like she claims
Why would she hurt me so?
It now seems as though she wishes my pain
Without her in my life, I am lost
Where can I find direction?
How can I find my way?
Always I have believed that life was fair
The just and pure receive fairness
And the evil and cold receive punishment
I now see that these rules do not apply
A game without set rules is hardly worth playing
So why do we continue in this life-long game?
Although it is not right to quit
My desire to play such an unfair game is lost
Fear not world, because I never quit
I will never loose
I felt I was on the winning track
And there was little left for me to win
Then this new twist has happened
I know can see that winning must not be as easy
Everything felt too good to be true
But now I will be critical
And I will be slow to trust
True trust may forever be lost
Faith in the equality of life seems to have been lost
Who will be there now?
What do I do now?
When will find happiness now?
Where will life take me now?
Why must I endure such pain now?
How can I trust after what I know now?